Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Why I am not looking forward to summer vacation

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Let me start by saying that summer is my favorite season.  Much more so since we live here in Seattle, but even in Las Vegas, I loved the summer...mostly because I hate wearing jackets, strange right? But in Seattle, everything blooms and the sun comes out and you can go to the beach and parks and have picnics...........the list goes on.

Last summer was by far my favorite of all time.  We had swim lessons every day, we went hiking, we played outside.  The kids and I took a TWO WEEK road trip to Colorado, then to Las Vegas and then back to Seattle.  Two weeks after we got home, we left to spend 4 INCREDIBLE days in Seaside, Oregon.  It was an AMAZING summer.

And then school started.

At first, I was sad.  Our days of just the kids and me were over.  Lucy was off to half day Kindergarden and would be gone for 3 hours a day.  MY BABY was getting older and was now in school.  But now, with just under four weeks left of school, I am freaking out.  I have now realized that those 3 hours a day when she is in school save some of my sanity.  It gives me time with just Dexter, playing and bonding.  It gives me silence when I go to the grocery store, you know, since Dexter has his speech delay.  And now with Dexter in pre-school two days a week, school has become my sanctuary, the time away from my kids that I so desperately need.

Don't get me wrong, I looooooove my kids, like totally love them to the moon and back, but man, mama needs a break now and then.  It's nice to know that for 3 hours a week, I have nothing to do other than read (I only get to read while Dexter is in pre-school because they don't have wi-fi there...say whaaat?  I know right??).  But that is 3 hours that requires me to do NOTHING but drink my coffee and read my kindle.  It's 3 hours that, since I have been home from the hospital, mean that I get quiet time to re-group, collect myself and breath.

Come June 18th, there will be no breaks but there will be the constant onslaught of "mommy look," "mommy watch this," "mommy, I'm hungry," "mommy, mommy, mommy..." And I am tired already just thinking about it.

I know, I know, I need to relish these days, live in the moment and cherish them while they are young. I get all that.  Don't think for a second I don't know that these days are limited and soon, summer will come and they will be off with their friends, or worse, off living their own adult lives.  I know I will miss these days.  But for now, today, I am already missing school and those breaks.


  1. Just exactly how I feel! I have a love/hate relationship with summer...

  2. U're going to have a BLAST!!!!!

  3. I go back and forth about it, When I had a little baby and a pre-schooler and kindergartner I felt exactly like you do now, but now That I have an almost 2nd grader and almost 1st grader and almost 3yo I can't wait for summer, no schedule, lots of sleeping in and snuggling, and brother bonding time, and spontaneous trips wherever we want. I think when you first get that break it feels so good, but after awhile you feel a void, and miss the noise. Just where Im at in my parenting journey right now :)

  4. Summers always give me anxiety. Attempting to plan activities, feed them constantly (seriously, do they really need all three meals and so many snacks?), and playing referee between the three of them; it's just exhausting. I think I'm going to have to implement a mandatory one hour mama break somehow!


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