Monday, September 29, 2014

Brave and beautiful

It's just after midnight on Sunday.  I've been trying to figure out what to write for this post for days, weeks.  I have written and re-written this post so many times I can't even count.  But here goes with what I have for you tonight...

I've always been self conscience about myself.  I've never thought of myself as pretty or thin or stylish.  I was never the popular kid in school and I never really fit in.  I had my good friends which is all I really needed, but it never stopped me from wishing I had more.  But, I am not sure what "more" I was looking for.  

As an adult, I carried this baggage with me.  I wanted a nice car, I wanted nice things, I wanted to be skinny and pretty and stylist.  And the truth is, I never was.  I have spent year, YEARS, trying and wishing and hoping to be all these things I am not.  

But in April of this year, all of those feelings and issues in my head changed.  Some of you might remember when I was hospitalized for pancreatitis. Reflecting back on those 15 days I spent in the hospital, there were times when I wasn't sure I was going to make it.  Seriously, I was in some bad shape.  When I left the hospital, I was 25 pounds lighter than I was when I first went in.  My face was sunken, my clothes didn't fit...I wasn't skinny, but wasn't chubby like I had been two weeks prior.  I had lost so much strength that walking to the mail box was a struggle.  I couldn't lift my kids.  I had lost all desire to write, to create.  

Now, almost 6 months later, I have gained 10 lbs back and I haven't been more comfortable in my own skin.  I feel funny saying that because I am still not skinny.  I am still not stylish and I still don't feel pretty.  But I am comfortable with myself, finally.  It took almost dying for me to finally feel okay in my own skin.  

I was having wine with my friends tonight and somehow during the conversation I said something like, "oh it's ok, because I don't care what people think of me.  There have been times when I've had one too many glasses of wine and have said some stupid things and have stressed about what I said all night.  And I have panicked thinking that my friends would disown me.  But the truth is, I have to stop worrying so much what people think of me, because this is who I am.  Chances are, the next bunco night I will have one glass of wine too many and say something else stupid.  And if you decide not to be friends with me anymore, then that's fine.  But I am who I am, and this is who I will be." This was not in context to anything bad, it was just me throwing out a random fact.  

It took almost dying to realize that.  I am loud and sarcastic and cynical.  I unintentionally monopolize conversations when I am nervous or overly excited about things.  I sometimes interrupt people when I remembered what I needed to say 20 minutes ago.  I don't do this to be rude, I just don't think sometimes. 

But that is who I am.  And this is who I am going to be.  And I finally like me.

Make up or not, I finally like me for me.  

I am Brave and Beautiful - a beauty movement that is sweeping the globe. Colbie Caillat started it with her recent song and video called TRY. My blogging friend, Megan of Brassy Apple, wanted to push this movement along and invited women from all over to share what they looked like without make up and I decided to joined in! Colbie's song says, "Take your make up off. Let your hair down... Look into the mirror at yourself, Do you like you? Cause I like you... "
Megan and her friend Cobi of Peacefrom6pieces have been the team behind this whole project. Their worldwide vision included creating their own video inspired by the song TRY. The talent of Robbins Creative made it possible for them to pull it off. You have to click play and see the beauty and bravery displayed and you might even recognize a few faces in there.

Myself, along with 101+ other blogging women from different backgrounds, religions, ethnicities, ages, shapes and sizes, have decided to be Brave and Beautiful! You can join in this movement too by sharing what you look like without makeup on. You don't need a blog either! Just tag your photo with #IamBraveAndBeautiful on Instgram and search the hashtag to see who else has joined in. ALSO, if you tag your picture with a second hashtag - #ColbieTRY we just might be able to get Colbie Caillat's attention since she was the inspiration behind it all!

share your natrual beauty -

Don't stop here. Get clicking around - its a blog hop! Below are more brave and beautiful women bearing more than their natural beauty. They each have a little bit of their heart to share with you. Some get very personal. Some share stories. For some this was very hard to do yet they gathered their courage and did it anyway. We hope as you click around (and YES pin these different posts!) you will feel the importance of it, the empowering effect it has and that it encourages you in some way.

women sharing their natural beauty - no makeup
women with our makeup on and what makes them beautiful
women from around the world share their face with no makeup on -
Mommy bloggers share their face without makeup and what makes then beautiful
Natural beauty untouched photos
raw natural beauty - join the movement
beauty and bravery - women wearing no makeup -
#colbietry #iambraveandbeautiful
Ready in join in?Snap, hashtag and share! Tag @BrassyApple and @Peacefrom6Pieces if you can too!
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  1. For sure it takes something large and drastic to take us to realize what we need to! It took me forever to realize this too but I'm so glad I finally did! I've loved growing closer to all you beautiful women! XOXO

  2. I would join up too, but I am too old.........And I'm a man.........By the way, U are very Pretty..........For a Tom-Boy!!!

  3. You can come drink wine with my any time. We can say snarky things, blurt out crazy stuff that we don't realize until later is more true than we ever intended, take turns monopolizing the conversation, and interrupt each other with the end of a story that we started 30 minutes ago.
    And love every second. :)

  4. This is the cutest blog!! Love your natural photo...and those EYES! Stunning....we have loved being a part of this TRY campaign with so many amazing women!! #womenneedwomen #hugstimesfive

  5. thank you for joining in and sharing pieces of yourself with so many! xo


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